There's the other guy. The one I actually like at the moment. He's one of my best friends, but he doesn't live near me. He was on my team this summer, so I got to know him pretty well. I like him, like I like him a lot. And by a lot, I mean, I would actually marry him. Like right here, right now, if he asked me to marry him, I would say yes, not a moment hesitation. Sounds like I'm a little in over my head, doesn't it? And yes, I am. I don't know what to do! I've fallin for him so badly. Big problem too! His dad is the president of the University I'm going to in the fall. He'll still be in high school next year, so I feel like it would be wrong to go there for both of those reasons. Right now, I don't feel like he's the reason I want to go there, I want to be there to serve God and find my way to reach out to people full-time for the rest of my life, but I don't want him to ever be the only reason why I'm there. I'm really worried that it could happen and it scares me! I mean, I guess if I'm there for the right reasons and I am supposed to be with him in the end, it'll work itself out, right? Yes. I think it will. If those are the plans that God has for us and for me, then it will. I have complete faith that He'll provide what I need, especially if this guy is that. :)
And I asked him to come to prom with me too... He lives like 2 and half hours away, so it's really complicated. He didn't say no, and he didn't say yes. He said he's not against to coming, but I live so far away that it would be hard for him to get here for it. And his parents need to say yes too. He'll be 17 this year, so I think he can decide for himself, but I guess it does make sense if he can't quite drive himself here. I'll go get him if I need to, but I don't want to force it on him. I need him to decide for himself, and let me know, but it's just such a hard topic to randomly bring up. Frig, I'm so confused. I feel like it might be easier just to take one of my guy friends from here, but I want him to come. He's worried that dancing might get awkward, but in my opinion, nothing's awkward until you make it awkward. I think it would be fine, but I'm not about it try to make him say yes. I guess I just need to let things work themselves out. If he comes, he comes, but if he doesn't, he doesn't, and I guess I'll have to live with it. Anyways...
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Boys... Gotta love 'em... Or not.
Alright, so there's this guy, who happens to be my ex.. I mean, it's not like we dated a long time, it was very brief, trust me, but he drives me nuts! Like seriously, he annoys the crap outta me! Every time he opens his mouth I want to punch him. And I know what you're thinking. He can't be that bad, can he? Yes, he actually can. Honestly! It's that bad! I look at him, and bam, I'm annoyed. He doesn't even need to actually start talking and I'm already going crazy! And I can't avoid him! He's friggin everywhere! I go to school, he's there. I go to church, he's there. I go to bowling, he's there! I can't escape his dreadful presence! Like this week, I didn't even have school, but he still managed to annoy me. Last summer, we did this summer team thing, there are two teams, and, of course, I got stuck with him. Our team is having a reunion in like three weeks and I have to take him to it. It's a three hour drive, where I can't avoid him!!!!!! I know, I know! Just say you can't take him, or tell him you're not going. But, I can't! I don't wanna take him, but if I don't, he can't go. I don't wanna be the reason he can't go see what was his team too. I'd be one of the biggest jerks around! So you see, I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE! I'm basically being forced ! Like taken against my own will, forced!
Oh, and to make matters worse, he felt the need to post in our group message that he was going with me. Doesn't sound that bad, right? Oh but it is! The team obviously found out we dated once and made a big deal out of it. They made fun of me all the time, like everyday, ALL summer long! I was like, frig man, why would you do that?! They're just going to make fun of me even more now! I mean, I didn't actually say that to him, cause he didn't know they made fun of me, but come on, like dude, even you're not THAT stupid. Obviously they would make fun of me for ever going there with you... Needless to say, Alisha is not a happy camper. Oh yes, and there's more! The reunion happens to be on my birthday weekend! I was looking forward to going and having a stress free weekend without him, visiting my team, and celebrating my birthday happily. But no, I guess Alisha doesn't get her wish to have an ex free 18th birthday. Lovely, eh? Instead, I have to spend three hours in a car with him, and then put up with him the next THREE days! The WHOLE time! I can't friggin catch a break.
Another thing! Every Sunday at bowling, he feels the need to friggin touch me! I'm ticklish as heck, and he knows, so of course he does it all the time! I get soooooooo mad! I HATE when people touch me. Period. And it's not just him, it's everyone, but with him it's like a million times worse! And I can only tolerate it for so long. I'm like stop, seriously, just stop. My mom will be sitting right there telling him to stop, but does he? Of course not. He doesn't know limits! There are already rumors going around school about him, and with his touching problem, they just look even worse. And so, eventually if gets bad enough that I am actually formulating a plan to cut off his arms without getting in trouble for it. Sometimes it gets so awful that I honestly wouldn't care if I got in trouble for doing it! I would willing go to prison for the rest of my life it meant escaping his annoying presence! And girls like me wouldn't last in prison! I know it sounds like I'm overreacting, but if you met him, you'd understand my point. I'm not overreacting in the slightest. He's so dumb. And he has no common sense, or any clue of how to make conversation with people without making himself look like a complete, arrogant, cocky, arsehole. His attitude would be enough to make me want to knock him upside of the head. He says some of the stupidest things, and then I'm like, dude, why did you just say that? You just made yourself look like an idiot. But why should I care? I'm not the one that looks stupid right now, cause I'm not the one that half mental. Whatever though..
Oh, and to make matters worse, he felt the need to post in our group message that he was going with me. Doesn't sound that bad, right? Oh but it is! The team obviously found out we dated once and made a big deal out of it. They made fun of me all the time, like everyday, ALL summer long! I was like, frig man, why would you do that?! They're just going to make fun of me even more now! I mean, I didn't actually say that to him, cause he didn't know they made fun of me, but come on, like dude, even you're not THAT stupid. Obviously they would make fun of me for ever going there with you... Needless to say, Alisha is not a happy camper. Oh yes, and there's more! The reunion happens to be on my birthday weekend! I was looking forward to going and having a stress free weekend without him, visiting my team, and celebrating my birthday happily. But no, I guess Alisha doesn't get her wish to have an ex free 18th birthday. Lovely, eh? Instead, I have to spend three hours in a car with him, and then put up with him the next THREE days! The WHOLE time! I can't friggin catch a break.
Another thing! Every Sunday at bowling, he feels the need to friggin touch me! I'm ticklish as heck, and he knows, so of course he does it all the time! I get soooooooo mad! I HATE when people touch me. Period. And it's not just him, it's everyone, but with him it's like a million times worse! And I can only tolerate it for so long. I'm like stop, seriously, just stop. My mom will be sitting right there telling him to stop, but does he? Of course not. He doesn't know limits! There are already rumors going around school about him, and with his touching problem, they just look even worse. And so, eventually if gets bad enough that I am actually formulating a plan to cut off his arms without getting in trouble for it. Sometimes it gets so awful that I honestly wouldn't care if I got in trouble for doing it! I would willing go to prison for the rest of my life it meant escaping his annoying presence! And girls like me wouldn't last in prison! I know it sounds like I'm overreacting, but if you met him, you'd understand my point. I'm not overreacting in the slightest. He's so dumb. And he has no common sense, or any clue of how to make conversation with people without making himself look like a complete, arrogant, cocky, arsehole. His attitude would be enough to make me want to knock him upside of the head. He says some of the stupidest things, and then I'm like, dude, why did you just say that? You just made yourself look like an idiot. But why should I care? I'm not the one that looks stupid right now, cause I'm not the one that half mental. Whatever though..
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Who am I?
Oh heyy guys,
How's everyone? Good, I presume! :) And I guess I'm not doing too bad myself. I'm starting this blog as a way to relieve myself of stress, get some ranting going, without causing any unnecessary drama, cause that's dumb. Anywho, about me. I think the best way to do this, cause it'll be more interesting, is listing some fun facts.
1. I'm 17 atm (18 in like 2 weeks)
2. My birthday's February 16th ^ look abovee, duhhh
3. Ohh, my name's Alisha. That's a good one :)
4. I'm 5'2. Shortness runs in my father's side.
5. I love to dance! All the time! I dance in the grocery store, and my mom gets embarrassed to be there with me.
6. My hair's brownish, blondish, with a touch of red in the sun. (And yes, it's completely natural)
7. I'm a bowler. And no, bowling isn't just for old people. I love it, and I must say, I'm pretty dang good. (I hold the top female record for my province and am the youngest to ever do it. 412, yes, that's REALLY good!) just take my word for it.
8. My parents have been happily married for 23 years in May, and I'm proud to say that.
9. I'm graduating in June! Then heading off to Uni, finally :)
10. I could sleep ALL the time. Seriously, just ask my parents. It's what I do best :)
11. I actually like school... sadly. Reading this, you may not think I'm a very smart person, but I actually am, most of the time. I love math, and physics, and I'm taking level 1 English. Unbelievable, eh? :) (I still don't know why...)
12. Sometimes I say things I shouldn't, and tend to be too proud to take it back.
13. I love seeing other people smile and laugh! :) I always feel better when other people are happy!
14. Concerts are my thing! I can't even say how many I've been to in the past like 5 years. Mosh pits are where it's at! I may be short and little, but I always find my way to the front ! :)
15. Oh yes, can't believe I almost forgot this, well you know what they say, gotta leave the very best for the very last! I LOVE JESUS! <3<3<3 a lot a lot a lot!!!!!
I'm very exited to start this blog! I'm going to use it as a means to vent, where people won't see it, or just won't know the real people/problem. I'll probs also do some random advice blogs, and some other stuff in there! :)
Love ,
alisha :)
How's everyone? Good, I presume! :) And I guess I'm not doing too bad myself. I'm starting this blog as a way to relieve myself of stress, get some ranting going, without causing any unnecessary drama, cause that's dumb. Anywho, about me. I think the best way to do this, cause it'll be more interesting, is listing some fun facts.
1. I'm 17 atm (18 in like 2 weeks)
2. My birthday's February 16th ^ look abovee, duhhh
3. Ohh, my name's Alisha. That's a good one :)
4. I'm 5'2. Shortness runs in my father's side.
5. I love to dance! All the time! I dance in the grocery store, and my mom gets embarrassed to be there with me.
6. My hair's brownish, blondish, with a touch of red in the sun. (And yes, it's completely natural)
7. I'm a bowler. And no, bowling isn't just for old people. I love it, and I must say, I'm pretty dang good. (I hold the top female record for my province and am the youngest to ever do it. 412, yes, that's REALLY good!) just take my word for it.
8. My parents have been happily married for 23 years in May, and I'm proud to say that.
9. I'm graduating in June! Then heading off to Uni, finally :)
10. I could sleep ALL the time. Seriously, just ask my parents. It's what I do best :)
11. I actually like school... sadly. Reading this, you may not think I'm a very smart person, but I actually am, most of the time. I love math, and physics, and I'm taking level 1 English. Unbelievable, eh? :) (I still don't know why...)
12. Sometimes I say things I shouldn't, and tend to be too proud to take it back.
13. I love seeing other people smile and laugh! :) I always feel better when other people are happy!
14. Concerts are my thing! I can't even say how many I've been to in the past like 5 years. Mosh pits are where it's at! I may be short and little, but I always find my way to the front ! :)
15. Oh yes, can't believe I almost forgot this, well you know what they say, gotta leave the very best for the very last! I LOVE JESUS! <3<3<3 a lot a lot a lot!!!!!
I'm very exited to start this blog! I'm going to use it as a means to vent, where people won't see it, or just won't know the real people/problem. I'll probs also do some random advice blogs, and some other stuff in there! :)
Love ,
alisha :)
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